that half-caste looking girl.

So, lately I've been thinking about friendship a lot. Sorry if this post bores you.

In Primary School, I had one main group that I hanged out with. It had four girls, including me, and we were all best friends. Two of the girls I still regularly talk to. One of them I know is still my best friend, and we go to the same school. The other I see at least each holidays, just to catch up. However the last girl, she's a different person now.
This upsets me so much. Three years ago we all thought nothing could separate us, and that high school wouldn't make a difference at all. We all made a pact that we would all see each other at least once a month. This never happened and it seemed like such an easy task.
In the last three years we've only ever had a renunion once.
Today, I was walking to my bus stop, and who did I walk past? That girl.
I was obviously ready to be really excited, but she took one glance and then she ignored me.
Why do friends ignore each other? Maybe because they're not friends anymore.

Another person is one of my best friends. He's different and I love him for that, but his relationship with this girl is tearing him and myself apart. I barely talk to him anymore, I don't see him anymore. I miss my best friend.
There are sooo many things I want him to know, but I can't tell him. He doesn't have time for me. Just for her.
I thought that I was losing him, but I realised that I have already lost him. And that's the worse thing that could happen to me.
There's nothing I can do, because he's in love with her.

One last little rant.
You. I miss you. I miss us talking everyday, and walking past each other and wanting to say something but we never do. Why do I feel so utterly horrible whenever I see you?
Maybe because you seemed to replace me so effortlessly. I don't care if you don't have feelings for me, but you could talk to me or something. Tell me it's ending before it ends.
Otherwise you're making me hang on to something that isn't even there.